1 week ago
I met a guy in Hong Kong who led me to this beautiful quaint place called Aberdeen. He said it's a "best kept & must-see secret" in Wong Chuk Hang. And I agree.
Sometimes you plan things and you wanna commit to them, so you invest so much of your time planning and dreaming up about them.
And if in the end it falls through...
It breaks you in a way.
You don't have contingency.
Just ruined expectations and a broken spirit.
But if you have trained your mind, you know how to reframe every bad scenario into gold, pick up the lesson and be grateful for what just happened... you will start finding hidden gems in the mundane. You start forgiving yourself and just move on.
This isn't easy as this process takes so many failures, relapses and breaking of identity... to solidify you into a no-nonsense, stoic machine with a heart most days.
Tbh, I still fail at the heart part. I'd like to say I am mostly stoic 5 days a week, but 2 of those days I let my heart run wild and just feel what needs to be felt: myself, the emotional, sensual, intuitive, compassionate, all-good-seeing to a fault Iris.
I hope for the best in everything and everyone.
It sometimes ruins me. But I continue to do it because I do not know how to be anyone else other than me. And I have big faith in humanity.
I used to hate that about myself, but my vulnerability and empathy are actually my superpowers. I can weave stories and write poetry, connect & make people feel something.
Sometimes it comes with a price on my part.
But how can we experience something if we're not willing to pay the price for it?
I sat in this place for 3-4 hours. Meditated on gratitude for 2 hours. I felt connected and alive to everything around me. Watched as boats passed me by.
I waited till Zac came back to pick me up with an umbrella cause I was stuck in the rain.
That day I had my heart set on Victoria Bay, but instead got Aberdeen.
I let go of that attachment to Victoria, and learned to love what I have in front of me.
It may be an odd decision to travel to WCH and sit in front of a tiny boat club... the day ended that I fucked up but to me, that 2-hour meditation was worth my time.
What was your best mistake?